Yasin Malik Arrested before Hunger Strike

Maqbool Bhat's mother, holding a picture of her dead son at a protest on May 3 in Delhi.

Yasin Malik, the chairman of the Jammu Kashmir Liberation Front, called for a hunger strike in New Delhi to draw attention to the thousands of disappeared people in Kashmir. Yasin Malik was taken into “preventative custody” by the Delhi police hours after this interview, explaining the demands of the hunger strike was recorded. According to the Kashmir Reader, Malik suffered from a cervical fracture after being manhandled by Delhi police. Yasin Malik was then forced to take a plane back to Kashmir. 150 mothers, children and other supporters of Kashmir’s disappeared marched on May 3 in Delhi. They were met by a fierce, oppressive police presence.

Yasin Malik was the commander-and-chief of the Jammu Kashmir Liberation Front and spent over ten years in prison. He was instrumental in calling for the cease-fire and building the strong nonviolent resistance in Kashmir. This interview first aired on KPFA’s La Onda Bajita.

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The Bloom

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A Spring reading series of Bay Area writers, hosted at Progressive Grounds.

Yes-No is Thursday, May 9 at 7 pm. This free reading will feature Nayomi Munaweera, Tara Dorabji, Maria Allocco, Dilnavaz Bamboat, Yosmay del Mazo, Radha Narayan and Susan Shireen Kanga. Hosted by Phiroozeh Romer.

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the After Birth

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After giving birth, I bled. I’d been so focused on opening and releasing that after my babies came, I just stayed wide open. Prepared to give until my life slipped away. I didn’t feel the shot of Pitocin to my thigh. The IV pricked cold into my wrist. It felt so good to put my head back on my futon, as if I could sleep forever. But my midwife put her head squarely in front of mine—“Keep your eyes open.” I battled her, reminding her that I’d not slept for two nights—but in the end she won and so did I, I stayed with them.

I’ve been thinking about birth a lot. Maybe it is because my sister, Zarine, just had a baby. Or maybe because my daughters are turning six. Babyhood is very much over.

Nothing could have prepared me for what I faced after the homebirth of my twin daughters. Ixchel was transferred to the hospital. Her breathing was unstable. I lost so much blood that I could not bend over without almost passing out. I’d never been so physically unable. Unable to prepare food. Unable to pick up a sock on the floor. Unable to wash my dishes. And I was full of needs—so hungry, wanting steak. Needing help even to shower. It was two days before I showered.

I had two infants. This is what no one tells you—that when you are a mom you still have to get through the hard times, but now you have to guide your children, even when you are knocked to the ground.

Kali was in my arms, eating from me, requiring more than I’d ever given. And Ixchel was separated from me. The news kept getting worse—her blood was too thick. They had her in an isolation unit with a tube in her throat. Morphine. Salination. Too many decisions. I was not there.

Her father and the midwives went to the hospital with her that first night.

And then she was alone.

My baby was in the hospital. I was too weak to go. I could not let myself feel the pain. I just knew she’d be OK. I’ve never known something with such ferocity. She was born a warrior. I don’t think I cried. Every part of me had to hold steady. There was no room for panic or fear.

My sister, Sarai, saved me. Without me asking her. We had planned for her to photograph the birth. But in the end she stayed. She called her boss and took two weeks off of work. She slept on the lumpy, blue folded futon in the living room. Birth, death, and sickness provide this pinpoint clarity. How in one moment you can make a decision to pack your life up and arrive to hold someone up.

My mother, aunt, sister, father, friends, son, and kids’ dad were all stepping in and up and helping. It took everyone and then some. But I remember Sarai most during this time. Every day Sarai went to the hospital. When there was a medical decision to make about my daughter, she called. When they pulled out formula to feed my baby, she went to the freezer and grabbed my breast milk. When they tried to give Ixchel morphine, she gave her Reiki and got Ixchel to be still and calm. She made me breakfast in the morning and changed Kali’s diaper at night.

She cooked up my placenta for me. Really. I don’t know whose idea it was, but I ate it with basil on toast. The rest she cured, pulverized, and freeze dried, so I could use it as medicine. I still do.

It was humbling. Needing so much.

Sarai was the glue that held me together. She protected my daughter when I could not. She held her hand. And she held mine. That first time I went to the hospital, I came in a wheelchair and she pushed me there.

When I held Ixchel in my arms, everything was wet: my cheeks, my shirt. I was covered in milk and tears.

My daughters are six now and don’t remember their Auntie Sarai. At first I was angry. Then I was scared and then like so many things it just hurt too much. So I accepted that she was lost to me. She called me a few months back. It’s hard to pick-up the pieces of a relationship after so many years. I didn’t say, “Thank you for keeping me sane when my girls were born.”

I did say that I understood why she left. I told her that I love her. At least that is what I remember saying.

Protest Music on the Execution of Afzal Guru

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Afzal Guru was executed by the Indian government on February 9 in New Delhi’s Tihar Jail.
Executions are extremely rare in India. Afzal Guru was charged and convicted of the 2001 parliament attack in Delhi. Afzal Guru was hung after his final plea for clemency was rejected. Since his execution there have been massive protests. In March the Kashimr Walla reported 4 deaths and 350 civilian injuries resulting from protests against his execution. The protests around Azfal Guru’s execution are taking many forms, including protest songs. On Kashmir Speaks, Mumbai-based hip hop artist Ashwini Mishra discusses his song “True Lies: Tales of Afzal Guru.” This segment aired on KPFA’s La Onda Bajita.

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Vigils at the Livermore Nuclear Weapons Lab

Chelsea and Marcus Page-Collonge protest at the gates of the Livermore nuclear weapons lab.

Chelsea and Marcus Collogne-Page protest at the gates of the Livermore nuclear weapons lab.

Lawrence Livermore National Laboratory (LLNL) is the main location of nuclear weapons research and development in California, 88% of its budget is for weapons activities. The next monthly vigil conducted by Catholic Worker Farmers at the Livermore nuclear weapons lab will be on Friday May 3rd from 7:00 to 8:00 am. Chelsea and Marcus Page-Collonge discuss why they organize the vigils.

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A Note to My Son

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I never said thank you for that time you put your hand on my back and told me it was OK to leave. I’d left you sobbing on your bed. You were in fifth grade then. Arms lean muscles reaching to cover bone. Lanky in form, but small in frame and wailing when I said that I was leaving your dad. Even though I was raising you, I had no legal or biological claim to you. Leaving your dad was leaving you.

I came back a few days later to take care of you. Your moon face beaming at me. And we pretended like nothing had changed, your hand warm in mine as we walked home from school. Your shoelaces dragged, untied through the gutter as we crossed the street. Without being asked, you did your homework. If you were good enough, sweet enough maybe I would stay.

When your dad and I finally split up for good, you were 16 and no longer good or sweet. Your voice dropped and hung flat. “I don’t give a shit,” you said. “It doesn’t matter to me.” The gaping holes in your teeth replaced by braces. The round of your eyes bloodshot red and lidded with weed.

Now, you are gone from me. On the day you collected the posters from your wall, you couldn’t stop shaking your foot. Even your voice trembled. I could not see the scabs under your shirt, but I knew they were there, trying to stake a claim to the pain you tried to cut away. I recycled the empty bottles of tequila in your room. Most of the calls have stopped—the substance abuse program, your CPS worker, the counselor from the county shelter.

You call me when you need something. A place to stay. A tent. Money. And I can only sometimes bring myself to pick up the phone when you call. My stomach tightens and heat rushes to my cheeks. Joy, longing, and anger collide. I tell myself that I don’t hunger for you. I pick up the phone. We, for a moment, pretend not to be strangers. Mother and son. And that still exists even if not bound by blood or law. On your 18th birthday, you called me back to ask me to sign over your college account to you. “You’re not in college,” I said.

I want to be angry because it gives me something to feel that takes the pain away. But I remember how we were.

When you were in fifth grade, you put your hand on the square of my back, so you could feel my heart beat right into it. You knew that I came back for you. To take care of you. Because you asked me to. The plan was that I would leave before your dad came home. But he left work early.

I made for the door. He grabbed my elbow. The desperate hard grab, skating toward an edge. Thick pads of fingers, pulling me toward him. There would be no bruises from the force. “Don’t leave,” he said. My eyes filled with tears. My hair streaked in my face. And the animalistic fear came. Your dad was close to the edge. Hands on my shoulders. Voice out of control. I told him to get his hands off of me. His grip tightened. Every part of me wanted to leave, to break free. But there was you.

“Stop, dad,” you said. And you put your small thin frame between us. Your father stepped back, released me. That is when you put your hand on my back. I was sitting on the stairs. “It’s OK. You can go. Go.”

You gave me permission. Before I walked out that door, I held you. All 46-pounds of you, balled up as if you could become a fetus that would fit inside of me and go back into my womb and be born again as my child.

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Bapsi Sidhwa on Partition

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April 6 in Berkeley

Bapsi Sidhwa, an award winning, Pakistani author of five novels, including Cracking India and the Crow Eaters, discusses the partition of India and her work for justice. She was one of the first authors to take on the horror of the 1947 partitioning of India, the largest land migration in human history. About 10 million people were forced to migrate. An estimated 1 million people died from the rioting and fighting. Through her work as a writer, Bapsi Sidhwa strives to bring women’s issues of the Indian subcontinent into public discussion. She will speaking in Berkeley on April 6 at the 1947 partition archive’s Art for Partition event. This interview aired on APEX Express.

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Disappeared in Kashmir

Mughal Mass spent 22 years searching for her son, Nazir Ahmed. In 2009, she passed away, her son was never found.

Mughal Mass spent 22 years searching for her son, Nazir Ahmed. In 2009, she passed away, her son was never found.

Former BBC journalist, Ather Zia, discusses her research on the disappeared in Kashmir. From 1989 to 2011 there have been 8,000 disappearances and 70,000 deaths of Kashmiris resulting from the Indian occupation. Ather Zia is also the editor of Kashmir Lit. This segment of Kashmir Speaks aired on KPFA’s La Onda Bajita. Music is by MC Kash.

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Poetry and Resistance at the AWP

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Sri Lankan poet, Pireeni Sundaralingam, discusses why she organized a panel on international poetry and resistance at the Association of Writers and Writing Programs annual conference and book fair in Boston. The AWP is the largest national writing conference with over 11,000 participants. Pireeni Sundaralingam is the editor of “Indivisible: an anthology of contemporary South Asian American Poetry.” This interview first aired on KPFA’s APEX Express.

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Alleged Perpetrators–Unsolved Crimes of Kashmir

In December 2012, a new report was released in Kashmir, investigating the evidence of unsolved human rights crimes. Based on the evidence, the report identifies and names the alleged perpetrators of the crimes, including 235 army personnel.The report was released by the International Peoples Tribunal on Human Rights and Justice in Indian-Administered Kashmir. Kartik Murukutla a lawyer and former UN worker discusses the report.

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